{"id":1346,"date":"2002-05-24T02:12:32","date_gmt":"2002-05-24T02:12:32","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/ezoons.com\/?p=1346"},"modified":"2002-05-24T02:12:32","modified_gmt":"2002-05-24T02:12:32","slug":"looking_back","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ezoons.com\/?p=1346","title":{"rendered":"Looking back"},"content":{"rendered":"

(Btw, if you don’t want to read about some personal stuff, feel free to skip.)<\/EM><\/P><\/p>\n

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So, it was a year ago tonight that I got a phone call at around midnight<\/A>. I can still remember it now. The voice on the other line said that I was a backup for a lung. If they needed me they’d be calling within the next four to five hours. They’d call me if they wanted me to come in.<\/P><\/p>\n

After that I made a few calls. I called my friend Emily, called my parents, basicly telling them all what had happened and that there wasn’t anything to do now but wait. And wait I did. I tried to sleep, but I just couldn’t. I tossed and turned for a bit got online, tried to talk to people online. In the end I just kind of freaked out for about five hours.<\/P>

By the time they called me back I was a bit of a wreck. I basicly told them I couldn’t do it right now. I needed time to think about it all. Looking back, I am kind of glad that I told them no. I don’t think I was really quite ready to go through it all back then.<\/P><\/p>\n

My biggest mistake back then was also thinking I could face it alone. Instead of having someone come over to my place to hang out and wait with me I told everyone I’d be okay. Needless to say, I was wrong. I have also since gotten over my stubborn streak and learned that it is okay to ask for help. Thanks to all my friends out there for being so supportive.<\/P><\/p>\n

So here’s to a wish that I get the call soon. Given that I’ve now been on the list about a year and a quarter, my time should be coming soon. Of course, knowing my luck I’ll be getting the call tonight.<\/P><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

(Btw, if you don’t want to read about some personal stuff, feel free to skip.) So, it was a year ago tonight that I got a phone call at around midnight. I can still remember it now. The voice on the other line said that I was a backup for a lung. If they needed […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1346","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ezoons.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1346","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ezoons.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ezoons.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ezoons.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ezoons.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1346"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/ezoons.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1346\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ezoons.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1346"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ezoons.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1346"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ezoons.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1346"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}